There are two things I swore I'd never do.  The first was Tweeting. I said it was stupid and I'd never have an account. You can now follow me at @fighthezombie.  The second was blogging.  I couldn't figure out why people would even want to do it.  Obviously if you're reading this you already know that I might be getting a clue about that as well.  That said you might be wondering why the sudden change of heart?  Why start now?  I'll tell you why.

I discovered this week that just writing the first blog post was therapeutic for me.  I never would have guessed that blogging could be a tool for fighting the inner zombie.  Of course when I wrote the first entry I never would have guessed that anyone would actually read it!  Imagine my surprise when I got an email from my best friend who had run across it and thought I could use a few words of encouragement.  He was right of course but that wasn't why I had written it, to illicit sympathy from others.  I simply needed to get my thoughts out of my head.

So what was it about that simple act of writing that helped me so much?  I think it was the fact that these thoughts were no longer just rattling around in my brain with all the other thoughts and emotions.  There was something about having to organize them in order to write them out that helped me get a grip on exactly what I was thinking and feeling.  It also gave me the ability to go back and re-read what I had written the next day and that helped give me clarity as I could look at the situation from a more dispassionate position.  The thing I think that was the most powerful though was that I was able to give the part of me that desires to follow Christ more than anything in the world a clear, strong voice.

If you've ever tried to hear what someone is saying while at a large sporting venue with tens of thousands of cheering fans you'll know what I mean by giving the Spirit within me a clear, strong voice.  When everyone else is cheering it's almost impossible to talk to the person seated right next to you.  If you aren't a person with a strong voice you will be drown out.  Even if you do have that strong voice you have to really project to be heard even a little bit.  You see, the zombie inside is like the cheering fans only it howls in rage inside your mind trying it's best to drown out the voice of it's enemy.  It knows that if it can keep your spirit from hearing clearly from the Holy Spirit then you might falter and listen instead to the louder voice.  This happens to all of us far more often than I think we'd like to admit.  What I have discovered is that writing actually DOES help.  So for all the folks I've ever looked at funny or scoffed at for blogging you have my most sincere apologies.  It turns out that, as usual, I'm a little slow on the uptake in these matters.  Oh well, I can appreciate the irony and am actually getting a chuckle out of it.

Most Holy Father, I cannot thank you enough for revealing to me yet another way to fight the zombie inside. Lord lead me and guide me by your Holy Spirit into all truth and help me to stand strong against my inner zombie.