Inner zombie?!

Fighting the inner zombie?  What is THAT all about.  Well in a nutshell it is the battle that all Christians fight within themselves.  We know we are "saved" and are trying to live our lives in a way pleasing to Christ but find ourselves doing and saying things we shouldn't.  The crazy thing is that we KNOW we shouldn't do or say it even as it happens.  We aren't the only ones who have faced this.  Paul devotes most of Romans 7 to the topic. Starting in verse 15 he says this, "15
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good.17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do--this I keep on doing.20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.22For in my inner being I delight in God's law;23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members.24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?25Thanks be to God--through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin." 
I am currently in a pitched battle myself.  I have been hurt by many close to me and to be fair some of their accusations are valid and there are areas I need to work on. However much has transpired that has me ready to wash my hands of the whole situation and walk away.  Will I?  Honestly, I don't know.  My emotions are screaming at me to lash out, hurt them like they've hurt me.  My inner zombie wants me to unleash a verbal assault that will leave them scarred and broken for the rest of their lives.  Another part of me just wants to walk away and try to forget I was ever involved with them in the first place.  Twenty years ago I would have done the former.  Fifteen years ago I would have done the latter, both times I would not have consulted God about what He wanted me to do.  Now though I am older and God has taught me many things chief among those being that my feelings lie to me.  I can't trust them in making decisions.
If I can't even follow my own heart (that's the worst advice ever in my opinion) than who can I trust?  Who can I turn to during these times of duress?  Certainly there are no end of opinions from folks around us but ultimately the only one in all of creation that is truly trustworthy and always knows what's best for us in our Father in heaven.  Problem is, in times like these my natural inclination is to run away from the light, not towards it.  The inner zombie knows this and uses it to it's advantage.  It wants us to go back into the dark because it is tired of being locked away like a misbehaving pet (at best) or (at worst) being crucified daily. It makes us feel ashamed for even having thought about not running to God with the issue at hand and then tells us that since we're so evil for having thought that way we might as well just act on it since God won't want to have anything to do with us now!
Of course that's the exact opposite of what we need to do.  We are imperfect beings and we have to fight to do what is right ever moment of every day, or at least I do.  Like Paul I daily find myself doing or saying things I know I shouldn't and that in my spirit I don't want to do.  As I've matured spiritually the daily things have become easier to overcome (though the battle still takes place) but when the big storms, the nor'easters if you will, assault us that's when the battle really begins.  And I'll be honest, I don't always win.  
You see, I hate confrontation of any kind.and when it comes my body dumps adrenaline into my system at gallons per second.  When that happens I can no longer think straight.  I want out and if I can't get "out" then I attack.  Not physically mind you, but verbally.  Growing up that was what was modeled in my house and I learned my lessons all too well.  Well enough that even if I do get away from the situation the adrenaline flows for hours afterwards and the most horrible things I could possibly do to the person(s) that hurt me go racing through my head.  Quite honestly, it scares me almost to death when I see myself go into this pattern.  I feel like Bruce Banner watching from inside his mind as the Hulk tears around, completely out of control.
So if I know this about myself how do I battle it?  Constant prayer.  I don't necessarily sequester myself away from the world for days on end but I do pray whenever I am alone or find myself beginning to fantasize about what I could say or do to inflict harm on the object of my hurt/wrath.  I also find solace in playing my guitar and praising God in the midst of the storm.  You see, when I am in this state I have a hard time hearing anything above the sounds of battle raging in my mind.  It takes me a long time to be able to distinguish God's voice from my own.  I know that if I'm not careful I will either miss God's voice or worse, ignore Him altogether.
Lord I ask right now that you would calm my inner storm.  That you would bring me to a place of peace where I can hear you clearly.  Forgive me for the things I have said and thought.  Show me where to place my feet that I might walk in the victory that you have already provided me because right now I need that more than anything!